You Don’t attract what you want, you Attract who you are.Excuses Be gone- Dr. Wayne dyer
I think google got the definition of the word, “surrender” wrong. It is not about just submitting to an enemy or raising the white flag, rather, when it comes to my life, this word means freedom; from worry, stress and overthinking about the future and my problems. This word means to me, that I stay above everything that is going on in my life, and refuse to let it control how I feel.
I believe it is this same idea of surrender Michael was discussing in his book, “the surrender experiment”. In this book, Michael Singer gives examples of the many times he just winged it. He stopped fighting for anything. He let go of the idea that we need to prepare for everything before we do it. He simply just showed up, accepted the flow of his life events without any resistance, met whoever he was supposed to meet, started whatever he felt the urge to start, welcomed whoever was looking to be part of his life. He inspired me so much to believe that there is a system to my life. That my life is not just a random occurrence, but something, someone, is genuinely interested in it and is guiding me to have the best experience from this life.
I would like to make a confession though. I did not finish reading his book. Why? Because, as is typical of our human desire, we wish to experience only good things and are put off by bad or tragic events- whether they are happening to us or we are reading about them. That is why, when it came to the part where Michael’s otherwise positive surrender experiment in his life, started bringing him less than ideal circumstances, I froze and could not read the sad parts. And this is what this post is about. Michael’s book, the parts I did not read, taught me way more than the good parts which I read. I learnt that I have been wanting to believe in these universal laws of miracles, attraction, surrender and the rest which I am not yet acquainted with, only if they bring into my life pleasant things. I would be a believer only if my life became better by practicing them, but the moment my desires don’t come fast enough, or my life keeps disappointing me, I turn away and return to my old belief system which did not serve me before, why would it suddenly serve me now?
All in all, this book is a must read if you want to start seeing the world with a fresh pair of eyes. If you want to believe that your life is not an accident, and that if you decided to surrender to your inner voice and guidance, even when it does not make sense, you would live the best life, no matter what. Granted, the ideas explained by this book might not be for everyone, as most of us are staunch believers of a reality which does not serve us, but we believe in it anyways, since we cannot be brave enough to believe in magic, however, this book could change your life and if unlike me, you can finish reading it to the end, who knows which other secrets you might find hidden in those sad parts of the book which I wasn’t brave enough to immerse myself through?
Final words on this book: let whatever happens happen. Don’t worry, if it is bad, worrying will not stop it, if it is good, you will enjoy it.
Everyone at some point in their life goes through a “Who will I marry? When will I meet the one?” crisis( trust me, ask the tarot readers they will tell you it is true). Just like midlife crisis for men and menopause for women, this rather depressing phase of our life could drag on for what seems like forever, making us question whether God of Happy-Ever-After was even getting our incessant applications for that perfect soulmate in the first place, or he just doesn’t even have the time to see them, because he is too busy orchestrating happy endings for everyone else, except for us!
Ping Ponging between our exes remains the only option albeit the least attractive one, but what could a girl do? Netflix has run out of good tv and self-pleasing is not fun anymore( my clitoris is screaming for ceasefire, she is falling apart, she is threatening to file a domestic abuse complaint with the Clitoris Police). Little does anyone know, Mr. Right just cannot be one of our exes. They are exes for a reason!
So how does a girl get married? What is the name of the store which sells husbands? How much does a 6 feet tall, blue-eyed, Henry cavill look-alike cost?
Since Heavenly Mail is on lockdown, and all my tear-filled prayers to God have been stamped “Return To Sender”, I am now convinced more than ever that praying is not going to be the way that does it for this girl, and maybe, it is this very state of hopelessness, which drove me to a very crazy idea: What if I could C.R.E.A.T.E my husband?
Bob Proctor in one of his videos mentioned that as spiritual beings in an energy-filled universe, we hold the power to manifest that which we desire through acting as if we already have it. So if applied correctly, this method uses feelings, a hypothesis invented by Neville Goddard in his book, Feeling Is the Secret which explains that you could create your circumstances of choice by feeling as if you were already living in them. This includes people, too. So as Proctor would detail it for us, you need to start seeing the person of your dreams in your mind’s eye, talk and act as if he is right there beside you. For this to really work, you need to of course, start with a face, the colour of his eyes, his smile(and those dimples), his hair, his height, complexion and frame. The next step would be to give him a name( of course, come on). All this sounds easy right? No big deal! Well that is not all you have to do… it gets a little bit spooky and downright cray cray from here on out!
Living with a ghost is more like it. If I remember correctly, Proctor said you have to sleep with him, set a side a space with his pillow beside you on the bed, talk to him as if he is really there, ( talk of the imaginary boy in the movie, the Conjuring),basically, all the stuff you would normally do with your partner.The key is to get your imagination going, but not too far, I hope.
Playing God does have its perks. You get to choose how he looks like, make him just the way you would want him to be, just the way you like your pizza or birthday cake! Delicious and mouth watering, and no matter how many times you have had them, you just can’t have enough! I wish this works, because here is a little secret, I just bought a cauldron for this magic mix and I can’t wait to stir! The final product is blue-eyed like Hamoa beach of Maui, is tall and oh so handsome! Abracadabra!
What if I told you that everything you have been told about life until now is very little and they left out the most important parts?
Would you be willing to do away with everything you have learned about life and start over in your mind?
I am lucky. I am lucky I got access to this kind of thinking; to the truth about life. Can you also get the same? The answer depends on you. Do you allow yourself to think differently, to dare to forget everything and embrace a path that is filled with possibilities and miracles?
In order to get acquainted with this way of life you need to be in the following states of mind:
- Question everything. Ask why everything you have known and seen and touched and experienced, is the way it is. Who decided this? Is there another way the things you have known about life could have been, is there a better way?
- Be daring and a little bananas. How much are you willing to forego? Are you brave enough to declare your power over your life? Do you perhaps get scared to believe in more than one way of thinking? For example, me being born a Muslim already meant that there will always be a line I am not supposed to cross when it comes to beliefs and God and whatnot. I remember the very first time I held “The Secret” book in my hands and someone warned me, “No, be careful, you will confuse your thoughts.” Back to my question, are you willing to read that book anyway, and believe regardless of your beliefous background?
- Are your current beliefs working out for you? Many people in the world have benefited from seeing the world in a brand new way, wishing they had known how this world worked earlier, so they could have avoided so much suffering and helplessness. Will you still believe even after seeing miracles? Or will you be like the pharaoh, who demanded in order to believe, “Prove yourselves by working a miracle,” and still disbelieved anyway.
- Are you sure about this? Ask yourself, do I wish to see my life change? Because once you know, you know. You cannot un-know all the exciting things this new way of thinking will bring to your life.
- What you see or “reality” is indeed, the illusion. Are you willing to accept that what is happening to you or your life circumstances are all created by you? Can you change from a passive victim to an active creator of your own reality?
- All the mambo-jumbo about the universe is actually truth( and thank God or whoever it was who made this information available). Only on Earth or in this dimension, is the real truth made to be a delusion or the ramblings of lunatics, whereas, the so-called “reality” in which everyone finds themselves helpless and suffering, is made to be the truth. Why should you accept a truth that causes suffering, when an option exists which will free you and give you everything you want? How hard can it be, when all you have to do is believe? Jesus!
- Yes it works. All of it works. The law of Attraction works. Miracles exist. Everything I have learned and will continue to learn about the universe , works, always, anywhere in this world.
I want to confess something. I have always wondered who my husband would be. I guessed and guessed my way throughout all the guys I have known, had a crush on, or simply met once or twice. Whenever I got too worked up on finding out who my spouse would be, I would write the names of all the guys I know, on tiny pieces of paper, fold them, and playfully ask anyone or anything that was listening, “Who will I marry, please, please tell me?” as I toss them into the air and close my eyes to pick one. Haha! Whether this works I am yet to find out.
There were other times I would consult with my tarot deck to find out things like, why I feel so insecure when it comes to relationships, why certain things keep on repeatedly happening to me, why I feel stuck in a certain way of thinking or doing things. When I am calm and focused, I find tarot to be so revealing, especially when I ask specific questions relating to myself. For example once I asked tarot where these feelings of insecurity and unworthiness come from? The five of pentacles showed up and next to it there was the 8 of cups which was then followed by the queen of wands. This is how I interpreted these cards to mean, I needed to walk away from feeling inadequate or lacking and embrace my personal power, because the queen of wands to me is all about self- empowerment, self-confidence and self-assertiveness, all qualities that the queen so proudly and fearlessly portrays. I took it to mean I needed to step away from feeling like a victim of circumstances of my life and instead wield my wand of personal power and let my fire burn bright as I assume the role of a powerful creator of my own reality.
How easy would life be if someone had a trusted source of guidance? How many pitfalls and mistakes would we avoid if we can connect to someone, or something, that has eternal wisdom and knowledge of all things, and is highly invested in making sure you have a great life experience? How magnificent would it be if we can know where to turn to whenever we feel overwhelmed, unsure of which decision to make, if we can trust this source of guidance with our life, because it has not failed us even once? And what would that source be? If not you? Who would invest in your best interests if not you? Who would want you to enjoy this life experience if not you? The answer has always been you. You are your own biggest supporter.
Before you look for guidance anywhere, look within yourself. You already know everything. You have already lived your life. You know who you will marry and you know who you will become. As Esther Hicks says,
Your higher self knows where you are in relation to what you want and it knows how to get you there using the path of least resistance.Esther Hicks.
Imagine all your guidance methods and systems you have used before, to be your higher self. By your higher self I mean that unseen, pat of you that is wise and ever present, The part of you that whispers to you guiding you, giving you ideas, knowledge and inspiration. This is your true essence as a soul. This is your divine self.And the guidance you receive, is called divine guidance. Now we call this energy God, some call it spirit guides, others call it angels or guardian angels, but all these things emphasize the idea that something or someone separate has the power to change your life, whereas if you believe that your higher self knows where you are in relation to what you want and how to best get you there using the path of least resistance, then you will take responsibility for your life, and take back control which you gave to something else, someone else that is not you. If you believe that God exists within you, that the source energy that created the world is within you, so is the abundance and creative power that made everyone and everything, then your worries would end. You would be calm and reassured of the fact that you can get what you desire if you focus on what you want to attract into your life. And in the event that you find yourself stuck in unpleasant circumstances, you can be sure that you have the power to change them. Am I making sense?
I registered for Kain Ramsay’s counselling course at Udemy, and perhaps, this is the best decision I have ever made. The universe took me to this course, before this, I did not even know about Udemy and that there are courses you can take for as low as 17 bucks. The ad on Instagram was quite random as well and I had no idea I was following this site. But here I was, clicking on the link and finding myself quite drawn to register for it right away! And I did.Continue reading “How Self-Aware Are You?”
Imagine what it would feel like to know the answers to every one of your questions. Then imagine how effortless solving your problems would become if solutions presented themselves to you upon request, or if you could just ask for what you want and it is delivered!
It started as a hobby of mine. I listened to youtube videos about almost anything and suddenly, I find myself learning about an intriguing phenomenon of angel numbers.
Now, before you decide what your feelings about this are going to be, I urge you to entertain this thought with me for a little while. Imagine you are walking down a street, lost in thought about a problem that has been troubling you very much and no matter what you have done about it, you simply cannot understand what your next step should be. Now imagine if there is someone or something ever present listening in your inner turmoil and knows the solution to your problem but speaks in codes or numbers instead of directly in words. Would you still want to decipher what those numbers mean when they appear to you consistently, in a pattern every time you are thinking similar thoughts or are in a bind and need assurance that you are headed the right way? I found out these numbers, if you bother to notice them, carry meaning. They are always saying something.
Before this, I had no passion for numbers;being a student who failed mathematics with zeal and determination, I was glad when they told me there is a course which does not take into account my terrible score in mathematics and I dived right in. However, right now, I find myself searching numbers on Google more than the regular accountant. I have been baptised into the religion of numbers and I find myself constantly on a hunt, for the next big revelation of a constantly-appearing set of numbers like, 909, 109, 116, 313 and so on and what their relationship is with where I am at in my life right now.
Sometimes you find a direct reflection of your thoughts in the meaning of a number you just saw. Sometimes even you get to know in advance what is coming into your life that you need to prepare for. And on those other times, when you try to hold onto a relationship or a situation that no longer serves you, you find numbers such as 9 and 10 urging you to move on since you have gone full circle and new beginnings, promising a better future, await you. The messages are endless. They appear to each one of us when we need them the most.
Sometimes these messages may be confusing or one set of numbers can mean a bunch of things when you Google their meanings, it is during these times that I engage with my tarot deck and my intuition to clarify what whoever is sending them is trying to say.
I know this may sound weird to people who decided life is a certain way, and not any other way. Or that there are no messages in those numbers. But I thought so too. Coming from a culturally and religiously-defined village off of the Coast of Kenya meant that I had a lot of programmed beliefs and conditions that I needed to see beyond in order to accept a different way of looking at life. So it is understandable if you do not believe this. However, I dare you to give these numbers a try and see whether or not they make any sense.