My Maker

There is some part of us that always wants to worry. It is a nasty default setting that centuries of survival have put in us. Somehow we decided that things cannot happen just naturally without our control or actions, but that is hardly the truth. The truth is that if we are honest about our life and how far we have come, most of the things which happened in our favor had nothing to do with our input or direction. Mostly because we didn’t even anticipate or foresee them, they just happened.

Why is it then so hard for us to trust in this same flow of our life, this invisible force which ensures all we need is effortlessly made available to us through unexpected means?

Take for example children, we all were helpless once and we could have died of starvation or exposure but somehow we didn’t. It wasn’t because we got jobs when we were two years old and paid rent and strived to afford milk and baby food to survive, but regardless, we survived. So, my question is who was it that provided for us then, and how is it possible that they would stop caring for us now? You can’t tell me it was parents by virtue that they were parents, because I have heard of several parents who would up and leave their children to starve or throw them in a trash bin, or torture and kill them. So, no it had to be someone else. This person put love in our parents, and if they didn’t love us enough to care, he inspired someone else to be there for us. This person couldn’t leave us then, therefore, he can’t leave us now or never will. Can we learn to trust in this invisible force which loves us and takes care of our needs? Can we surrender to this force and let go of control? Can we release our worries and fears about tomorrow, what we will eat or drink?

What you see with your Mind’s eye, you will see with your eyes

Life without a vision is like a bus without a destination. That dream is in you for a reason. What you imagine your life to be when you close your eyes, that vision, must come true.

When you listen to stories of people who are leading extraordinary lives today, they started with an idea in their mind of where they wished to be. Most of these people came from very poor backgrounds, had a rough childhood, weren’t loved by their parents, slept hungry or were stuck in a harsh reality in which they couldn’t imagine escaping from, but they dared to dream big regardless of how impossible their dream seemed to be.

Life is like that, it will give you all the reasons why you should give up only to watch and see if you will take the bait of hopelessness or not. Those who have really made it in life chose to keep believing in their dream no matter how hard life was. Looking back, if I hadn’t kept going despite the odds against me, I would have taken an easy way out by submitting to the miserable reality of my life. The depression, the anxiety, family tension and poverty almost put me down for good. Lack, chaos, and confusion colored the book of my life. Labels were thrown at me by people who thought I shouldn’t have survived what was put against me. But something in my mind and heart of hearts, always knew I was destined for great things. The vision in my mind’s eye burned bright even as I stood between a rock and a hard place. Reality persisted with its tumultuous challenges but so did I with my faith and vision.

So what is my vision?

Short answer: To live an extraordinary life where I am my happiest, healthiest, free and most expressed.

When I close my eyes, I envision only the most abundant of the most abundant any human being could have and enjoy in a single lifetime. A lifestyle that many of those who have known me and my story would laugh at me for even conceiving such luxury and opulence. I don’t care if they do. I believe that I wouldn’t have imagined it if God hadn’t prepared it for me. In fact, if we believe that time is relative and past, present and future is all combined together, I would be convinced I had lived the life of my dreams in a time of my past which in this moment feels like my future. I might have as well already lived the life of my dreams in a relative time and space. That is why I have such a vivid picture of every detail and how it feels like to be there. That is why I yearn and miss it so much. If that is true, which I believe it to be, then it is only a matter of time!

Meditation of Love and Forgiveness-Ho’opnopono

I am Sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you.

Ho’opnopono

There is something in this world which responds beautifully to these four words: I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you, I love you. Speak them often to yourself and to absolutely anything else in your life, and watch as stuff start to change for the better. They say you need to at least do this meditation for 21 days to see the results. I am on day I don’t know but it has been several days now and I am already feeling much better overall.

This powerful meditation has an equally powerful story behind it. A psychiatrist used this healing meditation on a group of hopeless and dangerous lunatics with criminal records whom no doctor could treat and had been left in an abandoned ward and they all ended up fully healed and well. I must say, it was hard to believe at first, given that they are just simple words with no extraordinary meaning to them, however, I have come to realize that they could be life-changing if felt with the heart! They are capable of healing your unresolved traumas, your inner child, your stormy relationships and your negative thought patterns.

Love is healing and so is gratitude. That is why I think the two words, I love you and thank you in this meditation stand out to me the most. Interestingly, this world seems to have been built around a certain wavelength which reacts to any expression of gratitude. For example, if you were to say thank you everyday for everything you have, you would notice that everything else you wanted before keeps on coming to you effortlessly. The more gratitude you show, the more things keep showing up for you to be grateful for. It is a code which responds directly proportional to your level of gratitude.

The miracles this Ho’oponopono meditation could unravel are infinite. I believe only when you have used it to heal yourself and others with whom you have had a falling out, will you be able to see the benefits this meditation holds. Even then, you wouldn’t have seen everything it has to offer you unless you are willing to try it on absolutely anything and everything.

Talking of experimenting, I saw a video where a woman was saying these words to money she was holding in her hands. She spoke to the money as if it was alive and for once I think we could have the answer to solving all our world problems such as poverty, food insecurity, epidemics and wars. Imagine if the whole world were to practice this meditation with intention to alleviate all the disasters mankind has had to endure throughout generations! I believe the world would become heaven itself! Let’s Ho’oponopono our way into 2022, shall we?

You Don’t Have To Fight Anymore

Dear all of you who have been in hell,

You don’t have to fight anymore!

You survived. You came through to the other side of hell. You no longer have to take a defensive stance anymore. You are safe.

I know the place you have come from. A place which made you suffocate. A toxic home environment. A narcissistic ex. A deal gone wrong. Cancer. Heartbreak and pain. That place made you scared. It is a dark place to be at. You held on with all your strength. And had to borrow some. You refused to give up. You wanted to so much, but you could not pack up and run. Because where else would you go? Who cared enough about what you had been through. All people saw was a wreck. All people heard in your cries was complaints. They would not understand. No they just don’t care. Because it is not happening to them. They will only care to judge, saying, ” Oh you have changed!”. How do they expect you to remain the same, when all that you went through alone took such a toll on your very essence as a soul. Don’t they remember the wars you had to fight alone? One against them all? How could they forget your dark nights of the soul? Those moments you wished you had died. But alive you still remained. How would they know? They would not understand. You gave your all in the fight. But the dark hole took just as much as well. It took your smile. Your free spirit. It stole your heart and turned it to bile. It made sure you would always stay afraid. Afraid of trusting in the world. Afraid of opening your heart. Your softness turned into aggression. Your warmth to ice. You built walls. As high up as the sky. Nobody could break through to reach your true self. You stayed alert. Always weary of others’ intentions. You don’t need to fight anymore. The worst is over.

My Name Is Nam Nam

Hi! I am Nam Nam. I am 1 years old. I am a male cat and my mum tells me I was a teeny weeny kitten when she first met me. She said she fell in love with me at first sight! I love my mummy a lot!

I am a good cat. I don’t cause any troubles except for the occasional poop accidents at home. I love my home, it has a balcony, my favorite spot for an afternoon nap. I get time to go outside and play too. I have several friends, we play a lot. I also have a girlfriend, her name is orange. She has the most beautiful eyes ever! I sneak outside the house when mum is not around to see her.

Mum is busy all throughout the week, but granny is there to keep me company. She likes to give me meat which I enjoy a lot. In the evenings, when mum is back from work, she calls me and I run to greet her. She always comes with delicious gifts. Yesterday, she surprised me with delicious chicken, my favorite food.

Read to the end to see more cool photos. Let’s be friends shall we?

Your friend,

Nam Nam.

MY PHOTOS

Me, resting after a meal.

Me, outdoors.

I had a Big Realization Today

I know I rant about this and that sometimes(bear with me please), that is because, apart from my passion for writing which drove me to create this website over 3 years ago, another reason I put up my site at WordPress.com was simply to have a platform for venting. Can you relate? Perhaps, I should have know then that this website was going to be my diary, where I scribble this and that of every day of my life.

Yesterday after meeting with several frustrations, I came to my diary to vent. If you read yesterday’s post, you will see how confused and a little biased, (a lot biased, I mean, I really believed there are no good human beings left in this world)I was, about how hard human me vs. other humans who-are-not-me interactions can be. What stood out to me today however, was an enlightenment that perhaps, will solve my personal conundrum about relationships.

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