You Don’t Have To Fight Anymore

Dear all of you who have been in hell,

You don’t have to fight anymore!

You survived. You came through to the other side of hell. You no longer have to take a defensive stance anymore. You are safe.

I know the place you have come from. A place which made you suffocate. A toxic home environment. A narcissistic ex. A deal gone wrong. Cancer. Heartbreak and pain. That place made you scared. It is a dark place to be at. You held on with all your strength. And had to borrow some. You refused to give up. You wanted to so much, but you could not pack up and run. Because where else would you go? Who cared enough about what you had been through. All people saw was a wreck. All people heard in your cries was complaints. They would not understand. No they just don’t care. Because it is not happening to them. They will only care to judge, saying, ” Oh you have changed!”. How do they expect you to remain the same, when all that you went through alone took such a toll on your very essence as a soul. Don’t they remember the wars you had to fight alone? One against them all? How could they forget your dark nights of the soul? Those moments you wished you had died. But alive you still remained. How would they know? They would not understand. You gave your all in the fight. But the dark hole took just as much as well. It took your smile. Your free spirit. It stole your heart and turned it to bile. It made sure you would always stay afraid. Afraid of trusting in the world. Afraid of opening your heart. Your softness turned into aggression. Your warmth to ice. You built walls. As high up as the sky. Nobody could break through to reach your true self. You stayed alert. Always weary of others’ intentions. You don’t need to fight anymore. The worst is over.

My Name Is Nam Nam

Hi! I am Nam Nam. I am 1 years old. I am a male cat and my mum tells me I was a teeny weeny kitten when she first met me. She said she fell in love with me at first sight! I love my mummy a lot!

I am a good cat. I don’t cause any troubles except for the occasional poop accidents at home. I love my home, it has a balcony, my favorite spot for an afternoon nap. I get time to go outside and play too. I have several friends, we play a lot. I also have a girlfriend, her name is orange. She has the most beautiful eyes ever! I sneak outside the house when mum is not around to see her.

Mum is busy all throughout the week, but granny is there to keep me company. She likes to give me meat which I enjoy a lot. In the evenings, when mum is back from work, she calls me and I run to greet her. She always comes with delicious gifts. Yesterday, she surprised me with delicious chicken, my favorite food.

Read to the end to see more cool photos. Let’s be friends shall we?

Your friend,

Nam Nam.

MY PHOTOS

Me, resting after a meal.

Me, outdoors.

I had a Big Realization Today

I know I rant about this and that sometimes(bear with me please), that is because, apart from my passion for writing which drove me to create this website over 3 years ago, another reason I put up my site at WordPress.com was simply to have a platform for venting. Can you relate? Perhaps, I should have know then that this website was going to be my diary, where I scribble this and that of every day of my life.

Yesterday after meeting with several frustrations, I came to my diary to vent. If you read yesterday’s post, you will see how confused and a little biased, (a lot biased, I mean, I really believed there are no good human beings left in this world)I was, about how hard human me vs. other humans who-are-not-me interactions can be. What stood out to me today however, was an enlightenment that perhaps, will solve my personal conundrum about relationships.

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