Dearest reader, I have kept mum for so long that I cannot postpone this testimony any longer. In fact, I have been nudged by my frequent jesus-themed dreams which were so vivid that I couldn’t ignore what I think Jesus is saying to me anymore. I believe Jesus wants me to say how he touched my life at home.
Now if you are familiar with my journey on this blog, you would know that family is the one area of my life I have struggled the most. Sometimes I wished I wasn’t even born. These were dark times; moments which left me scarred, bitter and unforgiving. But what I didn’t know was that Jesus was going to change decades and generations of chaos and conflict within my family by bringing us all together, in a loving and tolerant envelope of unconditional love and acceptance. Just like they say, the moment one receives Jesus into their heart, their entire household is transformed! Jesus did the impossible in my family- he is actively working to heal any rift and resentment all of us have held onto for so long against one another. Suddenly, I get along with my mum with whom I have fought for so long. And my mum is feeling merciful towards my grandma, something that was in fact, impossible to achieve until Jesus intervened. And boy! Am I thankful He did!
These past few days have been my happiest so far. I felt my inner child heal every moment I spent with mum. Jesus is healing all of us, all at the same time. He is breaking whatever curse my family has been under for generations. He is showing me miracles and he is not alone; He is working closely with His mum- our lady Mary. Several times I have had dreams where I call unto her to pray for me. I have slept listening to hail Marys and I could hear these prayers in my dreams. I am thankful and so humbled by Jesus for calling me to him. Proverbs 3:5 says, “Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”
Psalm 23, “The lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing…” Is where I draw my strength to keep going even when I don’t know what to do or where to go. Every time I am scared of anything, I hear Isaiah 41:10 “Fear not for I am with you. Do not be dismayed for I am your God.” I just want to say this: I wish I welcomed Jesus into my heart many years ago and I can’t see a life without Him-not after I have known Him! Not ever!