Hello fellow human! I know it has been tough but hang in there! Life can be daunting for the majority of us who are living with anxiety and depression and even more so when we have to care for and support our family through theirs. Love is what makes us hold on even at the cost of our own health and wellbeing.
Someone once told me that there is no illness that is difficult as mental illness. I believe when they said this I wondered if that was even true with there being very serious diseases like cancer and other terminal illnesses. However, I see what they were meaning all along. Mental illness is worse because you cannot know you even suffer from it for a long, long time. It will hide itself menacingly as it devastates you and all those you love and care about. It will make the world a gloomy place and most of the times you will feel like an outcast. The fears and doubts you will experience will be powerful enough to shake your every belief, hope and wishes for a better life. Most of the times, you will feel like dying. It will make you close yourself off from the world and cry yourself to sleep every night. It is the worst of the worst because even compared to someone with all their four limbs cut off, you could be more disabled than they are since they could still get up and about their life but on your worst days, simple things like getting up from your bed and brushing your teeth will be impossible.
On the bright side of things, if there really is one, you are not alone! I find that depression and anxiety affects almost everyone all over the world. This community of victims can turn out to be so powerful, if everything made an effort to pray for one another by exchanging energies of love and support. For this reason, I am inspired to write this post today, after reading a particularly disturbing blog about a woman with her son, who are struggling in the hole that is mental illness. I specifically found her experience relatable because I myself have had to take care of my struggling family even when I was dying myself. To this woman and her son, I send energies of love and healing. Please know you are not alone. You will never be alone as long as there are millions of people in the world suffering from one illness or another. Hang in there!